Most of this post is me thinking out-loud.
Who am I....
This is something I've been processing lately. I have taken many personality tests over the years and they have all varied greatly in their results. I've never said "yes! that's EXACTLY me!" I recently took a Strength Finder 2.0 test before our Apartment Life retreat. It was unlike any other test I've taken. The end result was 5 of my top strengths which co-insides with a book that explains in more detail what all of these strengths mean. I read them all and but again felt like nothing pin-pointed me...
There was one sentence in one of the strengths (I don't remember which one) that stood out to me. It said something like "this person is great at finding a need a filling it, regardless of what it is." Ah ha! I think we have something here. I've said several times to Chase that sometimes I don't feel like I can define myself or what I'm good at because it's forever changing. If I see a need for a leader of a group, I'll lead. If I'm in a room full of talkers, I listen. If someone needs ideas, I give them. If an implementer is needed, I implement. Am I passionate about any one of those things? Not really. Do I mind doing them? Not at all!
I kind of feel like an ever-evolving person...maybe like a cameleon, except I take on the color that is needed instead of the color that blends-in. I don't think that analogy made any sense to anyone but me... Oh well.
The only thing that I know I LOVE doing, is serving in a very tangible way. This looks different depending on the situation. I love being available to anticipate someones needs and being able to serve them before they even know they need it.
So, I think I'm learning more of who I am...which is a lot of things. For a long time I felt like I just didn't know myself well enough because I could never pin-point my strengths. I'm still processing all of this but now I'm more secure in constantly changing to meet needs and serve.