I wish I could say that everything went as planned and we picked up the twins this morning...but alas, it did not go as planned. Without going into a lot of details, there is a chance we could still get them but it doesn't look good. My biggest concern is for the girls' safety. Please pray for them.
I woke up in the middle of the night and quickly realized I have caught the stomach virus mom, sister, and nephew had. It was/is nasty! I didn't sleep much last night but I was able to read about 1/2 a book while I hung out in the bathroom....productive sickness :) I'm doing a little better this evening but still running a decent fever. Chase is also under the weather...we are pretty pathetic right now.
We ran to Target last night to pick up a few necessities for the twins. We didn't take anything out of their packages and kept the receipts. Apparently that was a smart decision. We are really bummed and sad. My perspective on this entire process is that I'll believe it when I'm holding kids in my arms and taking them home. It's tough though. Nothing is for certain. Oh how I long to be 'normal' and have a 'normal' pregnancy but more then that, I long to be exactly where the Lord wants us and have the family the Lord wants us to have. Sorry for the raw emotions but that's where I'm at this evening.
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I'm SO sorry. The roller coaster is got to be so difficult! God is teaching me over and over that his time is perfect. Even though we don't know, God knows exactly where your children are and when you will be holding them. I'm praying for you both.
I'm so sorry for you both. Please keep us updated. I also hope that you start feeling better - it's no fun being sick!!
Sweetie, thank you for sharing your honest emotions. I love that David wrote this way in the Psalms...being completely raw, and then pointing back to our loving, kind, patient, perfect, all knowing, sovereign heavenly Father and then trusted in Him. You have just done the same.
Psalm 73 is a great example of this. Here is some of how it reads:
"When my heart was embittered, and I was pierced within, Then I was senseless and ignorant; I was like a beast before Thee. NEVERTHELESS (my emphases) I am continually with Thee; Thou has taken hold of my right hand. With Thy counsel Thou wilt guide me, and afterward receive me to glory.
Whom have I in heaven but Thee? And besides Thee, I desire nothing on earth. My flesh and my heart may fail, But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. For, behold, those who are far from Thee will perish; Thou has destroyed all those who are unfaithful to Thee. But as for me, the nearness of God is my good; That I may tell of all They works." Psalm 73: 21-28
And another verse that just came to my mind for you to cling to...
"...weeping may last for the night, but a SHOUT of JOY comes in the morning." Psalm 30:5b
Your morning is coming, and the joy will be so much sweeter because you have had times of weeping. We will REJOICE and SHOUT with JOY and Praise the LORD when your morning comes. It's coming...it really is! It's just a matter of His perfect time.
I love you.
Mom
continuing to pray. you've been on my heart constantly. love you.
chrys
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